Sharp Curves Ahead

1. I’ve snuck over the line into the 40s trying to look smooth while I do it.
2. I’ve been married. (3 Years)
3. I’ve been divorced. (8 Years)
4. I’m Married again!!! (4 Years)
5. Divorced Again (3 Weeks Separated)
5. Single Dating see above Remarried see above and I’m uneasy about being a twice divorced person.
6. Taurus and hate that I read astrology but still do and enjoy it.
7. Can be too cerebral and over thinking for my own good.
9. Not petite and never will be.
10. Have 3 dogs (Spike, Marble,Thierry), 2 cats I claim(Mischa, Spitzer). Several Strays I feed (Bobcat, Gwennie, Squeaker, Ninja 2, 2 Ferals and Thundar Babar, Chicken Cat)
11. Consider myself a benevolent capitalist.
12. The philosophy of my soul mate and our discussions of AA allowed me to connect me with God and spirituality.
13. A dog changed my life. (Jack and now Dogbert will never be forgotten)
14. Community is my thing and I have a tribe.
15. I love my parents. A lot. I have two of the most awesome and different brothers known to man.
16. Can be stubborn but it hides a tender heart.
17. My faith in people gets me through. I’m losing my faith. I find myself feeling somewhat scarred.
18. I love me some Violent Femmes. Gordon Gano is my man.
19. I’m a fan of independent film but sometimes it’s too much for me and I need fluff to fill me up.
20. I have fantasies about just dropping everything, taking the animals and going somewhere and living simple. This fantasy has passed. A new one has not emerged.
21. Kauai’s is my favorite Hawaiian Island.
22. When I dance I see the souls of others and feel the rhythm of sexuality intoxicating
23. In Junior High, I used to have horrible migraines
24. Have been thin once in my adult life.
25. Sex abuse survivor.
26. I have clinical depression and take meds. I have no shame about this.
27. Am somewhat protective of my friends.
28. Have two brothers. LOVE them a lot.
29. One of my brothers and his wife, gave me a niece and nephew. They make my soul smile.
30. I accidentally walked in early and got to hold my niece just minutes after she was born. I cried for the first time, tears of happiness.  I did it again when I held my other niece Sophia (Jenn’s Daughter).
31. I believe in God. I speak the language of Christianity but not the dogma.
32. I don’t believe it’s a sin to be gay. I believe it’s natural and part of the bigger plan God created. Consequently most religions and churches and I don’t see eye to eye.
33. Slow to anger but fuck with people I love and you will see ferociousness.
34. This is not how I envisioned life would be.
35. I love watching classically trained dancers and in my own head feel that it is biggest form of physical art form. Think ballet, classic dance, ballroom, stomp, step – whatever.
36. I cracked my skull ear to ear as a child.
37. The next response is usually – Oh that explains why you are what you are. (???)
38. I grew up in and around Dallas. I made a conscious decision to live here to be close to my family. My parents just moved 3 hours away.  They might be coming back.
39. I understand concepts intellectually but usually have to go through them as a reality to GET them.
40. Math teachers in high school and college pissed me off. I usually have to teach myself it to understand it but once I do, I get it.
41. Watching my dogs run is my church.
42. I used to believe that there was one special person for me. After reflection, I think that people meet when they are supposed to and come together learn and then travel on the path or off the path as needed.
43. Lindemann’s Framboise Lambic, Pear Cider and some types of sweeter wine are favorite alcoholic beverages.
44. I currently have a Scottish roomate and a another roomie affectionately known as the Little General. My roomie’s have both married and moved out.  One to Oak Cliff the other to Florida.  I miss them but life marches on.
45. I have two one best friend whom I don’t talk to anymore but I still love very much, and who I still consider best friends. I am now talking to one of them again and we are tentatively broaching being in each others lives again.
46. I feel like I was a child till almost 30
47. I have at different times been pagan, methodist, agnostic and now consider myself spiritual.
48. I snore. Enough that my friends invented a brand of ear plugs so when we go places together they can sleep.
49. I usually learn the best from pain. Or I have in the past.
50. Can be somewhat competitive but when I think I’m going to fail, I usually give up.
51. I wish my nails grew better.
52. I like my legs and am proud of the strength they have.
53. I am a recovering Control-aholic. Working the steps as they are pried out my hands.
54. I love playing the Zombie killing game but only for a bit as it gives me anxiety after awhile. I love Viva Pinata and Little Big Planet. But do not play much.
55. I want to have kids.
56. I understand I might not be able to deliver those from my body.
57. I haven’t quite worked out how I feel about that yet.
58. I sometimes fear I’m going to have a heart attack.
59. This process reminds me of that Van Haggar song.
60. I now have a stepson who is presently 11 years old. We are at the beginning of our relationship. Our relationship is developing and I like learning about this incredible amazing child. Our relationship will again develop. I’m not sure how he will handle this and I’ll put myself out there for a relationship and if he wants one, we will have one
61.  I’m more content with life and less content in equal measures.  Somethings like money having it or not, bothers me less but making a difference matters more.  I suspect my advancing age has that effect.
62. I sometimes have a fantasy that I’m pregnant.  I’ll imagine every feeling as somehow related to my pregnancy and then realize that is nothing but a fantasy.  I get sad and ok with this in turns.