More Positive…

I need to make an addendum to the update.  I started talking after the post.  To Moni, to Christine, to Ru.  People texted and left comments.  I stopped being in my head so much.  It stopped being so scary.  Also and this is crucial, Moni pointed out with my intestinal issues, I may be under-medicated.  And she has a point.  Sometimes when I eat a bit of gluten or have something else undetermined going on, not much stays in my stomach or my body.  If that’s the case, being overwhelmed, crying and the anger I have lands smack in the middle of depression.

That said, I do have a bit of the middle age crazy’s going on.  I am squarely in the middle of wondering now that I am an adult (for the most part) what do I want to do.  I have to choose my life now.  And there are still whole swaths of it that make me squeamish.  Not pleased.  That is just hard mental work my friends.  And last night while watch the extremely intellectual Thor – a quote came up that just soooooo resonated it was like they made the whole movie just for me.

It’s not so bad finding out you had all the wrong answers. You start asking the right questions.

So I am starting to ask the right questions.  When I die, what do I want to be remembered for?  What do I want to leave here on earth as my legacy.  It won’t be children to mourn me.  I need to align myself with questions that matter to me.  And start living that way.  I want to go to bed with a smile on my face.  Satisfied, sated and moving forward because there is no guarantee that tomorrow will come.

One thought on “More Positive…

  1. I like the quote. Maybe that is the answer to it all. Just ask the right questions first. You may be on to something.
    Love tweet Love

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