What is it about money and having it or not having it that affects my mood so deeply. Â Looking back over the previous months posts the highs and lows are related to how much is in my bank account or how much is in my company’s bank account. Â I realize things are going to be hot and cold and yet, I can’t separate it in my head. Â When things are tight, I feel like a failure and the hold of it weighs me down. Â When we are jamming, I can focus.
There must be way to be ok without money. Â To not tie it to success and failure in my head. Â It’s one of the things that I like the least about me.